This morning I dredged, pulled and hawked up on of my famous glob-balls with jet black fleck-and-marbling. This is something I get around to at least once daily. Just thought I’d let you—you with perfect hygenical manners—know that’s still happening this far in (or ‘out’ as the case may be). Mom asked me yesterday how […]

Had the feeling a couple times last week that it was at the point of all the way now, one way or the other. No more middlin’ around. & Struggling. If I didn’t go good all the way & forever I’d go bad. All the way and forever. Criminal. Gunny. Remorseless disregard for all. Stealed […]

Spent $55 of the $100 birthday (+ Christmas returns) money my mom gave me on a set (pair?)of bongos today. Kind of on a whim. But I see them as a program component, serving as a steam valve, a zen state inducer, a physical creative outlet, something fun amid all the serious work.
As a teenager […]

2PM. Metallica’s “Master of Puppets” comes on 98 KUPD. It’s the first time I hear it as something empowering (icky word) & not something I don’t want to hear.
I also hear on the radio—KJZZ, the local break during NPR news—that a guy went on a crime spree. He’d been smoking crack, they said.
End of passion […]

While putting some black underwear on top of the pink & white striped sheets in the washing machine to make a full load (whether to ensure our having matching beds or not, my mother, incidentally, has given Buddy a pink blanket to replace the $40 pad he chewed to bits the first couple times I […]