Billions of sentences served.
Notes on the process of recovery from crack and cocaine addiction written daily as I go through it.

Archive for February 2006


The Old Indian’s Cane

It was a short, plastic candy cane. He left that and a pullover in the back of my mother’s truck when I dropped him off in front of the grocery store after the last time I bought crack. Arizona crack, which is kind of a lot like South Carolina crack, which is not so much […]

Goofy About Not Being Taken Seriously

At night (and on the way to your house, while I’m talking to you, confiding, joking, driving home) in bed I get a little afraid.
Afraid of being discounted, of being categorized (how teenly angsty of me!), of becoming one-dimensional to you people who know me.
If I act a little rambunctious is it because I’m childish […]

Reinitiate…3, 2, 1…Contact!

Today was a day largely dedicated to getting in touch—via email—with people I’d lost contact with when I was, um, unavailable. Today’s list included Prayery, Michelle, Serge, Martin, Snooz, Elliot, Cyra, a follow-up to the Smarty-Pantsers and a response to Karen.
Here’s what I finally wrote to Karen:
Hey Karen,
Good to hear from you and hear your […]

…crosshatchings…

From Quality Magazine, Bensenville, IL, USA:
The first stage is designed to detect crack initiation on a polished specimen. The second stage is propagation life, which occurs after initiation.
—Dr. Reinhard Bardenheier, 28 January, 2006

Bullwinkle

You know the fighting back and all that stuff?
It’s not really all that much like a Rocky movie.