The dog park near me is closed for maintainence on Thursdays and a woman with boxers wanted me to meet her at a Gilbert dog park. I did but it was a far away, crappy park and I’m not sure either she or her dogs are good for me or my dog, so I’ve decided […]

God damn cocaine dreams won’t leave me alone.
Got hit twice yesterday. After only two days of my hari-kari schedule, it only took the dog park, breakfast, and my daily post to get me to the point of really needing a morning nap. I’s probably out for a couple hours, which is plenty of time for […]

Got an email from my boy Benoit yesterday. It went to everybody in our accompaniment training group. He’s scheming to get us all together in Colorado the weekend of April 29th. Even called me out and said that flights from Phoenix to Denver were $50 one way.
Things like this give me a weird feeling these […]

I did it. It was not easy, but I did it. I followed my new schedule, and because my admin portion included laundry and refilling a prescription (and waiting in the parking lot an hour for it), and because Mom wanted to share with me some spiritual thoughts from her church leader (I know it […]

That difficult morning of December 16th when I told my mother I needed help, I told her also that I had in mind what I would do to overcome my drug addiction. She wondered how she could help. I told her that more than anything I needed time and space to focus on the problem. […]